Kejriwal's paranoia as seen by an AAP Volunteer

I first met Arvind Kejriwal on September 21, 2014 at Aditya Sadan, Ashoka Road as an intern under one of those programmes engineered by his group of intellectuals to reconnect with youths and students after his infamous resignation and Loksabha debacle.  To the team of Volunteers and Interns fully dedicated to the cause of making New Delhi Assembly Constituency an ideal one and hence an example for others to follow, he gave a short speech, interacted and made sure to talk to the group from all wards discussing every bit of problem and their solution. Gopal Mohan, the In charge of his constituency said "You are Arvind Kejriwal, you are the MLA of New Delhi. You will analyse, understand and solve the problems in your ward".  That day my views on Swaraj changed from a mere theoretical subject to come-on-this-man-can-do-it, give-him-a-chance. I had seen a few ex-CMs waving hand from helicopter, but here this man was sitting amongst us, making a perfect implementation of Abraham Lincoln's definition of democracy.

In few months he silenced all critics,  proved all psephologists wrong, vanished his opponents and rose like a phoenix. In his maiden speech as CM at Ramleela Maidan, he said some of our leaders now want to expand the party on national level. But we will quell our Ahankaar, theAhankaar that destroyed BJP and Congress. Delhi had all praises for her CM, little did she know that was a beginning of an unending dirty politics between Kejriwal's coterie of ruthless pragmatists and a group of theoretical idealists led by Yogendra Yadav and Prashant Bhushan.

We hoped that Kejriwal will come back from Bangalore and would resolve the matter in a jiffy. But, he only deteriorated it further. When he asked the National Council to choose between him and them, his intention were clear-- My way or highway. I couldn't understand why the council was summoned when he had already made a decision. He didn't want an internal enquiry of his notorious stings by party's Lokpal, just because the opposition will demand his resignation as CM. Where was his activism of idealism and honesty? Even if, he was damn sure of a dirty conspiracy , Swaraj in it's worst form would have given the founders a chance to speak their heart. If the top voices of the party can be muzzled by muffler, volunteers will now live in fear, what, when and whom to speak.

I don't know other side is right or wrong, neither do I care, all I know is "the Hope", "the Honest" Arvind Kejriwal is no more doodh ka dhula. He is ready for political realignment and kick asses. He is a politician now. After a year or so, Yadav-Bhushan may go into oblivion, he may continue to be a politician, may be a good or best one, but the hope of clean politics have been punctured. AAP may succeed further, not as a change, but as changed – “He who fights monsters must take care lest he become a monster”.

I'm skeptical, had all these happened if AAP was sitting on the other side of the aisle? The poison of power has induced a delusion of grandeur and greed to be all in all in Kejriwal's coterie. Arvind needs a wake up call, meanwhile idealists should try to be little pragmatic and take Haryana as a challenge and set an example there.

Tanzil Asif is an undergraduate student of Technology at Jamia Millia Islamia, New Delhi, tweets on @theXzeal and can be reached tanzil.asif$gmail  10-4-2015